Today someone said something to me that hurt me. Initially I went into the hurt child space, where the hurt seems huge and overwhelming. I didn't like it there, so I tried blaming the person who had hurt me. That made me feel a bit better. Then I tried boosting myself - telling myself that I accept my situation in relation to this person, and that I have a beautiful life. It was a clever move on my part, since it disguised the boosting as acceptance. In fact it was a mixture of accepting my situation and boosting myself, and they both made me feel better. Finally I was able to just watch the pain in my heart. I could feel it fully, without excuse or explanation, and I could see clearly that I was not the pain. I was watching the pain. That felt good, because I felt clear and strong, and I was fully feeling the pain in my heart.
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